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Thursday, January 24, 2013

difficult day



I stumbled upon an article in the Denver Westword News today, dated January 3rd. It felt like someone threw a brick at my head. The story was about the death of my sister this past summer. Although Kimmyan and I did not share a childhood together, we both lived with our Moms, we shared many other things that were special. We have always rooted for each other and even counted each other when answering how many siblings were in our family.  I am deeply saddened and angered at her senseless death. 

I see the light but it feels pretty dark today. It is difficult.

Nicole 

6 comments:

  1. Hi Nicole, I miss you! I'm very saddened that you're having a difficult day. When I have a difficult day, I go to the Simple Abundance book that you sent me two years ago. I only go to the book when it's really tough, and it's yet to let me down or not be totally fitting for my struggle. If you don't mind, I'll share with you a bit from today's essay:
    January 24th: Blessing our Circumstance
    'After accepting your present circumstances, no matter what they are, we must learn to bless them. Right. Bless misery? Through your gritted teeth if necessary. Usually we don't know why something has occurred and we won't until there's enough distance to take a backward glance. However, blessing whatever vexes us is the spiritual surrender that can change even troublesome situations for the better. Blessing the circumstances inour lives also teaches us to trust.'
    And because I imagine that you have no strength for blessing anything at this moment, I send up an extra blessing for you, my friend.

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  2. sorry for the loss of your sister. xo

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  4. Thank you for your blessing and your sweet kindness Kim. I needed that.


    Blessed be! Nicole

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  5. I'm very glad you're back at the blog, and I've got to tell you I was very affected by the story of everything your family went through last year. Blessings to you and yours in the new year.

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  6. Dear Shannon, thank you for your blessing. In some ways I want Kimmyan's story to affect as many people as possible. I want an arrest made. ~~~ No path should ever lead to being murdered by an alfalfa farmer. ~~~ The other part wants me to keep it private, perhaps she didn't want her life to be exposed like it has been. I am just so damn mad about the injustice of it all. and the lies.

    Nicole

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Your comments kindle my spirit.

Namaste!