Watercolor Tuesday -- Coloring Naturally

Vivian's favorite thing to do is to pick flowers. 

She studies them and wants to know the name of each one.

I am learning right along with her, I love her passion for flowers. 

                  

By the end of our walk we had a basket filled with beautiful soft petals and two tired little girls. I put them in for quiet time , made a cup of tea and set out thick watercolor paper, rounded the edges of course, and when the girls woke up we explored making colors by rubbing the petals on the paper. 

It was magical. The pinks turned to purple. 

Vivian was not please with this project at all. She could not understand why anybody would want to smush the flowers and ruin them - after one try she had enough. She grabbed her basket and set out to replace the flowers that we had ruined. 

Ella and I on the other hand enjoyed smushing and rubbing the petals - pansies and azalea petals worked the best. The paper was colored so beautifully, so naturally and so thoughtfully- perfect for thank you notes. 

I have a lot to be thankful for and today I thankful that I am able to forget about my biological father and his ability to get a glimpse of my life through my blog. He does not deserve a connection with me. We are very different people. I try not to hold onto negative energy and I do my best to avoid it.  I refuse to invite suffering into my life. I hadn't expected this man to find me or my blog. He is the one who sent this.  Turns out it wasn't so safe. I still have the dulcimer - I gave it to my girls.  I am back to blogging and the truth is out - I took a break to figure out some weird and awful  feelings about the man who donated his sperm to create me. My mother had no idea that my life was a donation. In that light, I am glad to be back sharing my love of motherhood, homeschooling and being a part of a community that I love. This post is full of joy - full of honesty. I am free to move on and enjoy MY blog.

Namaste, Nicole