The days are getting darker and darker. Soon it will be the birth of the new sun and we will began to see more light. How beautiful that my mood follows the earth's natural cycle. I have been nurturing my darkness, otherwise know as depression. I am sleeping nine hours, eating slightly better (my husband reads this so I dare not stretch the truth), taking salted baths, mediating and spending more time outside. Good habits are hard to keep up when I am feeling down, but I am fighting hard to take care of myself - so that my little ones feel taken care of too. So much of what we feel as Mothers - our children feel. too. Such pressure.
I'll take the pressure of helping myself to keep my children and husband happy and healthy rather than accepting the pressures of what I perceived these weeks should be (decking the halls, buying fabulous gifts and out doing last year's Christmas magic). I have embraced my darkness, I have let go of the worries of last week and I honor my inner Goddess with the gift of redefining what this season is all about.
So into the light I go...