Last Wednesday I ran out of gas. I was doing too much - going too fast and I didn't noticed that I was running on empty. There I was on the side of the road - swaying back and forth as each car whizzed by us. I had some time to think before Geir came and saved the day. I thought that I needed to slow down, focus and get back into the moment. My friend Mary reminded me of this too - everything is connected and happens for a reason. If we pay attention the reason becomes obvious. It wasn't until Thursday afternoon that my newly realized intention of slowing down came to a crashing halt. I suffered a migraine for two full days. Geir once again saved the day. I got the rest that I needed. I love him very much.
I feel renewed and calm. I have made some changes to our day. Ever since the time change - the girls have not been napping the way I needed them to. So now they nap in different rooms and it made all the difference in my world. Once I rock Vivy to sleep, Ella and I go to my bedroom and read "Little House on the Prairie." She doesn't sleep but we read for a long hour and it seems that is all she needs in terms of a nap. This was hard for me as nap-time meant no children for 2-3 hours during the afternoon. But I am starting to like it and I am having fun doing projects with Ella that if Vivian were awake it would be much harder to do. I think Ella is just loving our time together. Here she is planting carrots, onions and radishes.
She also has a new responsibility in the afternoon -- folding laundry.
I am not good with change - I like rhythm and knowing what comes next. Nap-time was there everyday at the same time - we never skipped a nap. It was my security, my blanket, my lovey. Now it is different, Ella is maturing and I need to follow her growth. I look forward to our time together. I still have to figure out how to balance my needs and the little ones needs at nap-time and to be careful that I am not too tired at the end of the day that I lose myself.
Spring is about renewal, change, growth and beauty - so glad I am here to be apart of it - especially now since I am feeling better.