I don't believe, I know.
~ Carl Jung
Because I know... why don't I do it - more often? Since I know then why do I still do it? This perplexes me. Yet I know I am not alone. This weekend I helped to gather a small group of inspiring women to create a Goddess Circle - a place where we will celebrate who we are and nourish who we want to become. I will always need to gather around other Mama's and forge together onto the new frontiers of motherhood and soon the frontier of homeschooling - but I also want to gather around goddesses and celebrate the inner me.
This topic of knowing our needs and suppressing our abilities to give ourselves what we need came up - and it was such a profound moment for me. I know what makes me feel centered, calm, joyous - and I know I don't devote enough time to generate these feelings. Is it lack of time, inspiration, a mood, fatigue, the weather?
I don't know the answer to this question...yet. But starting today I am going to unravel this mystery of mine and use what I know; my double jogging stroller and the beautiful walking parks in the area, an indoor pool, my yoga mat and fresh, wholesome food. I am going to tell my husband what I need instead of expecting him to know - and try to do it guilt-free. I am going to be mindful of what I put into my body. I am going to follow Michael Pollan's advice and eat only what would be recognizable to my great-grandmothers (not so many potatoes though.) I am also going to apply some of the tips that I found to be very encouraging in this book - a great find off my mother's bookshelf. I will get a routine doctors exam and have my iron levels checked. I am going to re-order my favorite vitamins and minerals after this post, I have gone too long without them. I will ignore my husbands suggestion that I could be perimenopausal, and know that he meant well. Last but not least I just might give myself the permission to go on that woman's retreat this weekend - after all it is a retreat celebrating goddesses of all things! And if I am still fatigued, annoyed and listless I will know that it is not anything I know now.
Breathe deep and know that I am.