Life is a balancing act. I gave myself permission today to let it all just hang by a string. I needed to rest and I needed not to struggle with my normal expectations of the day. I wasn't going to let me inner voice complain all day until dusk of how sick I felt. I let my expectations go and listened to my needs. So instead of zooming around the house at nap-time doing daily chores and chasing nap-time indulgences I put the little ones down for nap, poured a tall glass of ice water, took a few drops of Bach's Rescue Remedy and slipped into bed with my basket of books and some new favorite newsletters.
It felt so good to give myself permission - and do this guilt free. Earlier I printed out Eileen's newsletter from her blog Little Acorn Learning and after reading it I thought it was so useful, friendly and insightful. Eileen and her contributing authors really have introspective grasp to what readers want, need and enjoy. I feel lucky to have found this support with my Waldorf inspired homeschooling endeavors. After reading this newsletter my mind went back to "go" mode - I was so inspired and had lots of ideas. But I needed to rest - so I placed some eucalyptus oil on a tissue and gently breathed in the medicinal and meditative smell. I feel asleep and a little while later woke up with the chills. I drew a warm, salted bath for myself. I let go of all visions of my messy house, to-do list, the clock and our missed routine. It is these moments that I realize how much I balance in life and how good it feels to let them go if only for an afternoon. Like the cheerios in the picture - they balance nicely when they don't have to do it all by themselves - that piece of yarn represents my effort in making sure I rested today so I can keep a balanced and happy family without being bitter about it. There have been many days that I choose to struggle through the day trying to get it all done when I wasn't feeling well . I did it differently today because today is Goddess Wednesday and I did what any Goddess would do - take care of herself. It might have worked out differently if I had came down with a cold on another day. Taking one day a week to focus on me is really working out well.
We don't always get a bowl full of cherries - sometimes life hand us a bowl full of sour grapes. Treating ourselves better - resting when our bodies need to - quieting our minds to listen to ourselves. Life doesn't have to be bitter.
Be well and most importantly be kind to yourself.